I finally have internet on my phone. YAY! Coolness.
I can't believe how long it's been since I have wrote Emery is now over 2!! He talks in some sentences and he is absolutly obsessed with drums. Where we go to church the drummer will let emery play every sunday and his name is Bob... So anytime we see drums anywhere they're all Bob's drums we were watching a live concert with bonjovi and wouldn't you believe it the drummer was playing Bob's drums ;) lol

Well off to bed! Night.

Reading my last post I was right... I couldn't completely prep myself for what has happened. But let me say that it has been the most wonderful experience God has ever let me have the privilege of experiencing.

Motherhood.

When I found out I was pregnant I often thought thoughts that I shouldn't have been thinking. I would want to throw myself down a flight of stairs. I would want to be in a car wreck. Anything and everything to make me NOT pregnant anymore. (I know its horrible but its the simple truth.) I couldn't believe that God would do this to me. Take away my freedom. I was angry. I was vengeful. Going through the whole nine months I had sweet times when I was thankful that God allowed me to be a soon to be mom. But I would then go back to the mentality of "WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME!!!" "YOU RUINED MY LIFE!" And then August 13 came around... Me and Andy went to the hospital to have this boy. It was terrible.. There was a point I reached in the delivery room when I said I can not do this anymore I have no more strength. And God held me told me I will do this with you a we pushed and sweated and bleed and pushed some more. That is the only explanation I have for not giving up. God was helping me holding me telling me you can do this. He did through my husband who didn't appear tired... He was strong and sweet. Right by my side the ENTIRE time. And through the nurses who kept cheering me on and through my doctor when I looked at him and was dead serious told him "I can NOT do this anymore, I am to tired" He told me Sheria I can't do this for you the contractions can't do this for you You are going to have to do this. He had faith in me.. He knew I could do this. He was my strength when I didn't have any left. God was in that room, He was in my husband He was in those nurses and He was in my doctor.

I LOVE being a mom. =) I love it with a burning passion. Emery is my boy. My son. I love LOVE telling him that. I can't explain what has happened. I really don't know. Over the past 7 weeks something has changed in my heart. I didn't lose my freedom "yes I have lost sleep" but no I didn't lose my freedom. There is something about when your  baby looks up at you and gives you the biggest gum grin. It makes your heart sing, smile, jump, beat an extra beat. Its beautiful. Theres something about when you go to your en laws house and when you've passed him to someone to hold him for a minute and you walk off to fix a plate of food and he tries with all that he has to follow you, follow the sound of your voice. Theres something about in the middle of the night when he wakes up crying and you hold him and make everything better. I have actually found that the middle of the night with Emery is the funnest. He just wants to hang out with you... Its really the coolest thing I have experienced. I am so thankful that God knows whats best for us. =)

I hope you all have a great day.